friday. january 21. 2005
strike 5, 10, 20? .. i've lost count... sigh... i'm so close to giving up...
searching for chronos @ 12:30 pm
|i'm so happy i could cry ^_^ i'm done done done!! no more stress for yeppie for the week. and then i get to take ceramics next semester. kyaaaa~ *^^* in fact, on my way out to charter from the japanese final, i was thinking that it was too bad that i hadn't had time to pick up some books from the library from the trip... i mean, it's nice to knit but i know i'll fall asleep if i try to knit for too long without something to distract me... but then i remembered that i need to plan projects for next semester ^^ oh it'll be so much fun!
i'm just wondering now if it'll be possible to get some of the things i'm thinking of.. i'd like to play around with porcelain if i can... the regular stoneware stuff is acceptable but just not what i want... it's rough and grainy and i'd like a smooth finish to some of my things if possible... so i'm considering if it might be possible to make something with stoneware and then coat it with porcelain for a smoother look. the problem is, porcelian isn't a regular material used in the ceramics course so i don't know if the department would want to pay for it... of course, if the department is willing to pay for that,, maybe they'd even pay for some new glazes.. i found some really nice ones online... ^_^
now i just need to grab some lunch and finish packing and then it's helloooo portugal ^^
searching for chronos @ 11:23 am
|thursday. january 20. 2005
music| ai no kusabi - oracion
i wanted to procrastinate earlier so i read over some of my previous entries... work work work, oh how boring... so i've resolved to try and avoid that... and try and be more coherent. that's key... most of my previous entries make me feel like i'm a scatterbrain... hm. but i guess i am sort of that ^_^
so today was sort of stressful... as was yesterday... this japanese test is really worrying me just because i don't have as much of a cushion as i have in the past. so i need to do pretty well if i want to get a decent grade... and there i go breaking the resolve already.. oh well.. hehe ^^
other than that, yesterday was a day of fun and excitement. went into the city in the morning on the 9:30 train! so early! but it was so worth it. my bow has pretty colorful hair now! i'm so psyched. everytime i see it, i want to smile *^^* and and i got a new book!!! happy! but on the downside, i went and got completely suckered by the tea store...
what happened was, i went to the tea store with the packaging of the tea i bought in kyoto over the summer and asked them for tea that was similar to it cause i really liked it. wel, they suggest two kinds, uji gyokuro and some other type... anyway, at the time i was thinking it was a bit expensive but i figured green tea was more expensive anyway so i bought it... wel, when i get back to the room and tell julie, she about has a fit... wel, not *really* but you get the idea... aand... wel, it turns out the two i bought are the most expensive ones they had at the store ;___; and gyokuro is *the* most expensive type of greentea japan produces.. granted, it wasn't the best quality ever, otherwise i would have never bought it (it can go for $100 a pound!) .. but i'm still bitter ... the tea is tasty tho... ;____; ... yup add another story to the 'yeppie is silly' collection.. *sigh*
and then i hit my head against the door in my room yesterday so my head hurts even now... or maybe it's from lack of sleep? although, i think i've been getting enough... how did i hit my head against the door?... um.. that shall remain a secret... let's leave it at yeppie is a clutz...
tomorrow it's off to portugal! i hope i'll have internet connection there but who knows!... wel, i know i will.. i just wish i had access to my h drive, that's all that really matters ^^ hehe.. back to some more japanese..
searching for chronos @ 12:25 am
|tuesday. january 18. 2005
music| noir - silent pain
so glad 435 is over! i didn't do as well as i needed to but oh wel, laaa~ ... it'll work out in the end. just glad that everyone else thought it was hard too ^^
tonight, i'm gonna relax, maybe apply for a job or two and then go to sleep early so i can go into the city bright and early. i'm so excited ^^ in less than 24 hrs, my bow will have new hair, more tea will abound in the room, and, perhaps, i will have gone to a book-off in america!!! oh, the joy ^^
searching for chronos @ 8:42 am
|monday. january 17. 2005
music| inuyasha - careless and carefree
yeppie's gonna fail. yeppie's gonna fail. yeppie's gonna fail fail fail. yay!.... ... i was hoping trying to put a positive note onto this whole matter might make me feel better, sort of like looking at things half empty and half full... but nope.. it doesn't quite work that way... and it's a departmental too ;______;
but it's gotten to where i don't give a damn about this anymore.. i just want to find my place in life and be happy... that shouldn't be too hard right? ^^;
searching for chronos @ 1:51 am
|music| studio ghibli - track 12
debating between going to sleep now and getting up early and staying up more and studying.. the question is, will i get up early enough if i go to sleep now?.. i should.. it'd be a solid 8 hrs til 8:30 even if i take a shower... but i think i'll just study a bit more.. like finish looking over all the problem sets...
searching for chronos @ 11:33 pm
|saturday. january 15. 2005
music| zetsuai - dousurebaii
today was nice. i actually got some things done with the thesis... granted, i haven't gotten hardly enough done for monday but it's a start... hopefully, tomorrow i can get really motivated and get it all finished.. i'm thinking that might be a bit optimistic but hey, who knows? ^_^ a girl can hope...
but my emotions lately have been like a weiner process with a huuge variance.. granted my mean isn't zero... and it's not independent but whatever, it's close enough... i sort of wish it were independant... but then i guess that would mean i have mental issues so.. i guess it's best there is a reason for it... happy, sad, annoyed, indifferent, hopeless, excited.. my feelings just hop around like crazy and i wish it would stop... it was bad enough before but now.. it's just a lot worse.. especially because my expectations are diminishing, so the emotions i'm hitting aren't as nice.. meh..
so to end on a happier note, here's a joke i saw on one of the forums i was browsing to try and distract myself...
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A teacher asked her class, "What do you want out of life?"
A little girl in the back row raised her hand and said, "All I want out of life is four little animals."
The teacher asked, "Really and what four little animals would that be sugar?"
The little girl said, "A mink on my back, a jaguar in the garage, a tiger in the bed and a jackass to pay for all of it."
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...if only it were so simple...
searching for chronos @ 3:03 am
|friday. january 14. 2005
music| recoil - control freak
really relaxing day.. did no work.. wel, tried to do work but did so little, i might as well count it as doing none...
um.. after the unproductive day, went to dinner and then the computer music performance. soo cool ^^ i liked it lots.. some of the pieces were soso.. i definitely almost went to sleep on a few, just cause they were more background music types than anything else but a couple were most excellent ^^ i though one was especially good but i might be a little biased there ^^ i'm definitely going to get copies if i can ^_^
nicole came back really late today... was really starting to wonder if something had happened... glad she's here safe now ^_^
searching for chronos @ 2:22 am
|thursday. january 13. 2005
music| final fantasy piano collection - mystic forest
yay! ele is finished ^_^ now i only have orf435, jpn301 and thesis!! i'm not so worried about jpn301 but 435 and thesis are gonna be a pain... especially the thesis since i haven't really looked at it for such a loooong time ^^;.. but that'll start after today ^^ i'm gonna take the day off.. hehe
slightly upsetting, the seller for this awsome auction on yahoo! japan ended it early.. my bank account thanks him but my heart is sad ;___;
nyway, shower, then charter, then work for me ^^
searching for chronos @ 10:58 am
|tuesday. january 11. 2005
music| shingetsutan tsukihime - castle
work is really empty. hehe ^^ .. i'm getting rather hungry though.. i hope stef gets here soon with some foood ^^ oh boy, she's here ^^ fooood
wel... that was yummy ^^ now for some work i guess
searching for chronos @ 7:08 pm
|monday. january 10. 2005
music| linkin park - my december
... sooo it's really late and stef isn't back yet.. ;___; hope she gets some sleep at the equad.. speaking of which, i go to sleep now.. i shouldn't have stayed up playing around with new photoshop painbrushes.. but i can't help it ^^ they're soo much fun. but yeah, spent time working on the design for my smaller cel gallery on rubberslug.com... it's fun having multiple sites ^_^
searching for chronos @ 5:56 am
|.. huh.. life is better but this still sucks... 10 mins to fill out sheet isn't enough... but at least it's almost done. yay. i should party tonight... and a little grrr. i'm missing the orchestra meeting/rehearsal for this... i'd so rather be there... and i'm also missing important info i bet! feh..
oh... um.. this thing has been reduced to entirely guestimation... requires much less thought but.. requires absolutely no knowledge...
searching for chronos @ 4:42 pm
|ARGH... oj sucks, a certain professor sucks, this game sucks! why won't our file RUN! we haven't done anything differently from any of the other times... it should work! bah.. feh.. i can't utter an exclamations strong enough to express my disgust...
searching for chronos @ 2:04 pm
|thursday. january 6. 2005
music| hoobastank - just one
... i'm just a bit miffed.. if that's the right word... usually when one is asked to hang on one expects to be gotten back to but nope... didn't happen. just signed off.... not even a freaking little good bye or good night.. bah..
at least i was making some progress on this ele report.. and i'm actually *learning* something! O.o.. mymy who would have thought ^^ but cd technology is rather facinating..
but i think i'll take a quick shower now... maybe it'll make me less upset/annoyed..
searching for chronos @ 1:42 am
|music| globe - sweet pain
it just struck me.. it's really 2005... life moves too fast...
nyway, here i sit at charter, trying to get work done.. the story of my life. ^^; .. the trying to get work done, not the sitting in charter.. i just figured out why i'm wasting so much time on reading fanfics and i don't like it at all but there's not much i can do to fix that... it doesn't help that i had another stupid dream, woke up late, and was late for work... i also feel bad that i wasn't able to meet with the oj group today but also glad in a way... oh wel, i'll have to make it up somehow... wel, back to work!
searching for chronos @ 5:26 pm
|saturday. december 25. 2004
music| porno graffitti - heart
yay. twas christmas.. not that we did much ^^...
slept really really late.. had to fight mom about it but i won... ^^; sigh... anyway. planned on watching a movie (like one of the zillion opening today but we went to the city to watch it cause we had a dinner appointment there later and all the movies were sold out. so we spent some time sitting at rockefeller center... sooo many people o.O. i enjoyed it but sunny and mom kept complaining how boring it was. eh..
then we met with one of mom's potential clients (now to become one. yay!) and wife and got treated at a brazilian restaurant called plataforma (49th, between 8th and 9th). soo good.. but then they talked for hours about stuff while sunny and i had to wait. such a waste of time on our part, but i guess it was worth it for mom...
had another odd dream last night... sort of more normal than last nights in terms of the things happening being more realistic but the subject was still confusing... what's up with all these dreams? i usually never have any and it can't be that i'm stressed cause all i'm doing is sleeping...
searching for chronos @ 2:50 am
|friday. december 24. 2004
music| garbage - beautiful
haven't done much the last few days other than sleep. i've been doing a lot of that... i really envy those whose parents won't wake them up in the morning cause of 'we're a family and the family should eat meals together and if you sleep late and wake up late, we won't see you' crap... i fail to see the problem with missing breakfast and all 20 mins that i would be up and with the family. grrr... i'm hoping that stops being a problem now that mom and sunny don't have to get up early in the morning for anything... it better not be a problem or i'll be a very cranky yeppie by the week's end
but all the sleeping i've been doing has prevented me from doing any holiday shopping... oops ^^; guess that'll be for after christmas... but i had this interesting dream last night... it was the day before christmas but for some reason i was still at school and was at mendel trying to borrow a cd and, when i go to the desk to borrow the cd, he was there working, which really confused me cause i thought he was suppose to be at home... so i just get my cd and go to the internet cafe/cafeteria section of the library and pick a table to sit at.... and randomly to the side, nicole is sitting at one of the computers using it (what?).. then this old chinese dude in a tux comes up and gives me a note from him that says he's still busy but he won't be next semester... then the chinese dude and another random guy sits next to me and start eating and then i woke up... um.. slightly random...
earlier, i saw 'volunteers,' one of the movies i got with stef from best buy. i really liked it, so ha! hehe ^^ i should see it with everyone later ^_^
tomorrow is christmas ^^. merry merry christmas people!
searching for chronos @ 1:45 am
|monday. december 20. 2004
so found out when i got here that both mom and sunny are sick... and now i am too... again! argh... it doesn't help that i'm also going though the usual 'get-use-to-the-cats' phrase. welcome home yeppie...
searching for chronos @ 12:35 am
|saturday. december 18. 2004
music| chobits - let me be with you
eeep.. i go home tomorrow... alas the break has been much too short.. oh wel.. i better go to sleep early so i can get up before my usual 12. afterall, need to pack and all ^^;
as for today, puerto rican food at damara's.. then 'remember the titans' on tv. good movie... i cried a bit but i don't think anyone else did.. i'm such a cry baby... and then we watched some awful madtv and snl... jeez were they bad...
searching for chronos @ 1:40 am
|friday. december 17. 2004
music| record of lodoss war - eternity
dinner at damara's. we tried making the spicy coconut mushrooms cause we made the coconut milk yesterday... it was a bit bland cause we only put one pepper in (cause we chickens, damara and me, thought it would be too hot with two) but still tasty i thought... but this following directions is boring, i'll just go with, put whatever you think works better.. you use fewer ingredients and worry less... who needs it to taste good ^^
afterwards, we watched 'laputa, castle in the sky'... twas fun but the dubbing is annoying and, i'm not sure but, i think disney modified the music as well.. bad bad bad!!.. disney definitely added lines in that did not need to be there... poor julie tried so hard to work on chinese while watching but she gave up by the time the title screen came up. hehe ^^
we also caught the end of the rudolph claymation christmas special. brings back such memories of childhood ^_^.. it's so awful how our evenings have degenerated into play times ^^; that was not the intention...
do you think of me?
searching for chronos @ 2:02 am
|thursday. december 16. 2004
music| neon genesis evangelion - thanatos
put some new wallpapers up on the cg images page. 2 princeton, 1 tron's angels, and 1 random. hope someone likes them ^^
searching for chronos @ 5:01 am
|music| noir - silent pain
wel, today was a lot of fun ^^ didn't get much work done... the afternoon was spent shopping with damara. first we hit b&n, then wegman's, michael's, and lastly target. we spent waay too much time in each place.. we're both so easily distracted.... ^^; ... but we had much success with the trip. got all the stuff to bake gingerbread cookies and all... we even have two cases of capri sun! .. but silly target didn't have any fresca... i knew walmart was better...
dinner was a quick and easy affair in the room with damara, eating the leftover pizza and the mushroom and cheese strudel stuff i got at wegmans.. yuuummm ^_^. after we finished eating, julie and nicole got back with their hoagies... while they we eating, we had a fun conversation about mulan... i love that movie ^_^... and then we all trooped over to spellman to have a 'teach yeppie to bake' party. yay!
before we started baking, we tried to get my computer connected to damara's tv to see friends but the computer was being stupid for a while.. and then it worked and didn't work and worked again.. it turns out that my computer hates being connected to the tv and won't work properly if it is, and i hate seeing the screen on any resolution lower than 1024x768... it's soo ugly that it's painful ;___; .. yup, i'm silly...
after the 50th try or so, we finally figured out a set up that allowed us to see the computer screen on the tv... and btw, my computer is a piece of crap. it's soo slow... and then we started making the dough for gingerbread... twas fun ^^.. but mixing is hard work!
while we were waiting for the dough to cool, julie started playing with wally the coconut and broke him :(... so we had to eat him... but we gave him a nice little passing on ceremony where we toasted him with his coconut water... he was yummy ^^.. and if you're wondering how one breaks a coconut, first throw it on the ground, then take a hammer and screwdriver and split it... it a rather difficult process but julie had lots of fun throwing wally to the ground ^^;.. after that, for some reason, we got really ambitious about cooking and decided we needed coconut milk... such a messy messy process.. and i think we leaked more than half of what we made... this cooking thing is not only difficult but it's messy.. bah...
by then the dough was cool enough to use so i got julie to show me what to do... i liked rolling out the dough. it's just like ceramics.. i wonder if i had made something and cooked it, if it would have cooked right? ... hehe that could have been interesting... i ate so much raw dough while cutting out the cookies, i'm surprised i'm not feeling sick... but the cookies backed nicely and they were yummy.. if a bit raw for my tastes. i like them better crisper.. after that, we left... i hope damara feels better by tomorrow :(
...now i'm sitting here sipping green tea... probably should go to sleep... but i don't really want to cause i feel like if i go to sleep, tomorrow will come too soon, which is silly because wel.. tomorrow will come at the same rate no matter what... in fact, i guess it's already tomorrow... but i can't believe the week is already gone... i still have so much left to do.. and i'm that much closer to graduation.. granted, graduation is still far far away but.. not as far far away as it was last week!... and that's less time for possibilities...
this has become an almost ridiculously long entry for a day that wasn't all that special... i think i'll end it now. but one last thing, how personal would you say a knitted item is for a gift?
searching for chronos @ 3:51 am
|wednesday. december 15. 2004
music| .hack//sign - didn't know but it was love
finally i'm done with the image i was working on... why was i doing it? .. cause i could and wel.. something else too .. i really never meant to stay up this late.. but i have to say, it's great ^_^ see for yourself here
searching for chronos @ 5:26 am
|tuesday. december 14. 2004
music| chopin - nocturne in e minor
finally some applications are done! yay! now i just need to get my orfe statement written. i think i'll try and finish that today? or maybe i should fill out the columbia application and then just leave the statement of purpose empty and then just do that tomorrow.... hm.. a much better idea ^^ that'll be the plan as soon as i finish with this
had dinner with damara today.. i wish i wasn't so useless when it came to cooking but i've never seen half the stuff people use.. corn starch? i didn't think people actually used it for anything other than maybe ironing something.. or is that just plain starch?.. anyway, at home i just make up something.. and it ususally tastes ok. granted, i'm a bit biased there since i did cook it... i should really learn how to cook normally tho. maybe that'll be my project while i'm home.. i do have to keep myself and sunny fed ^_^ and sunny can be my guinea pig. mwahahaha... ^^;
wel, back to the applications.. i just hope the others don't mind that i've turned the common room into my study room...
searching for chronos @ 2:17 am
|monday. december 13. 2004
music| serial experiment lain - insanity world
another day without getting my stupid statement of purpose written.. but it will be done before i go to sleep.. i mean, it's early yet ^^
i dropped off the chocolates today.. i hope they weren't taken by some stranger but i haven't received word that they were received..*sigh*...
nyway, julie had a fabulous idea that we should borrow bond movies and watch them in the evenings since we don't seem to get anything done then anyway. twould be fun ^_^.. tho i wonder if julie will be moving into spellman tomorrow? i just wish the dvds i ordered would get here soon... i'd like to watch some of them before the year ends ^_^
and if you have a little bit of time, this is fuuuun.. it's just a pity it's only a preview
searching for chronos @ 1:10 am
|sunday. december 12. 2004
music| strauss - salome: dance of the seven veils
winter break has started and no work has been accomplished.. on saturday it was all on purpose but, today, i meant to get my statement of purpose written but that failed miserably... i hate writing about myself... how do you tell what is the truth and what is just self delusion? meh..
but it has been a fun few days ^_^.. granted all of it has been a biiiig waste of time .. like the game of 'choose a or b' that we played for sooo long on friday... but it was fun to just talk with the roomies ^^ watching kiki's was a lot of fun too. it's always so much more fun to watch anime with people *hint hint*
and then, twas nice to have matt drop by... and also nice to have the holiday dinner with everyone... it's kinda sad stef is not here anymore... it would have been fun to party with all three of them.. but then, we have spring break for that!
lately, i've been wondering what life would be like if someone's life wasn't all consumed by work and obligations... would there be anything for me or would there still be nothing?... there's a sort of helpless resignation about him never having time for me (or if that's even something he considers ever!).. it also seems like he meets with so many other people, is there anything special about meeting me... what i wouldn't give to know... meh.. this is all so sad... is someone for me too much to ask?
searching for chronos @ 2:37 am
|thursday. december 9. 2004
music| radiohead - be quiet and drive
first time out in the street this year O.o... finally heard the low life. i liked them.. tho i did not like some of the other stuff that was going on...
otherwise, the viola dinner was fun, as always ^^.. the sarah's are so much fun. too bad a lot of the people couldn't make it... but we may be doing bowling in jan if i can get the logistics worked out ^_^.. now time for sleeeeeep...
searching for chronos @ 2:42 am
|oh nuts... i left my pencil case in the room.... i can't function without my mechanical pencil and erasor.... bah... today has just been a weird day... this morning, i was dreaming of working on an excel sheet (oh excitement...)and for some reason, one of the cells is highlighted bright fushia and is shaking and ringing and shaking and ringing and shaking and ringing... i was thinking 'wtf, why is one of the cells doing this? the value inside is a correct and it shouldn't be special at all..'... and so i keep on clicking and clicking and clicking on the darn thing and then i finally wake up and realize that it's my alarm... ^^; .. i think i should stop looking at excel sheets for the next month or forever.. i've obviously been oj-ing waaaay too much
i wonder what happened to stef's aim account? it's so weird that the password has been changed.. i hope it was dave changing it by mistake and not some hacker... that would be bad...
being sick sucks.. i already did my part in germinating this years batch of viruses... aren't we suppose to share this responsibility?
tonight will be fun. viola party ^^ and then there's the dinner tomorrow for the group which will be a great deal of fun ^_^ ... oh reminder... must run some errands, write in amanda for dinner meal exchange, beg ta to accept my late problem set ;___;... i really really hope she does take it...
searching for chronos @ 11:28 am
|tuesday. december 7. 2004
great.. i think i'm coming down with something.. i'm feeling lightheaded.. and then there's the stuffy nose and dry throat... i knew i shouldn't have sat in the room working last night.. eh.. oh wel. hopefully it's not serious and an overdose of oj will make my life all better...
speaking of oj, i wonder how we did? i hope we made more money than last time... but i guess i'll be happy as long as we don't make less than last time ^^.. i was trying to write my self-evaluation for the oj project but i can't get motivated.. self-evaluations always stump me.. so instead of working, i surfed the net.. and ordered more things.. bad me bad me...
hope stef gets here soon.. there's a rumbly in my tumbly and i want fooooood ^^
searching for chronos @ 7:09 pm
|monday. december 6. 2004
finished oj early... i don't know how we'll do but yay anyway ^_^... now time for more problem setting with some yummy green tea. partaaay!.. i've gotten so spoiled with the yummy stuff i have in the room, i can't drink the charter stuff anymore... ^^;
searching for chronos @ 9:39 pm
|in the sad sad orfe lounge waiting for a precept to begin... i'm still really unhappy with the way the prof has handled the class.. not sending out emails when he posts new classe schedules or changes the midterm or whatnot... and then the silly preceptor quit... at least we have a new one now.. i kinda wish we didn't have precept now tho.. at least then i'd have an excuse not to go..... oh wel, i should head out ^^
searching for chronos @ 7:28 pm
|saturday. december 4. 2004
music| shingetsutan tsukihime - prayer
winterformal was fun ^^ would have liked to have a real date but damara and then chrissy were fun fun fun. i forget how much i miss them but i should definitely see them more often ^^
but yeah... got back around 12:50 but i've been putzing around til now.. why? don't know. just cause i always do... it'd be weird if i went to sleep earlier. but i was organizing photos.. so more pictures should go up soon.. i hope ^^;
searching for chronos @ 2:49 am
|friday. december 3. 2004
music| vampire princess miyu - endless behaviour
the concert was odd... the audience didn't react at all like what i thought they would... i mean, i wasn't surprised about the reception of the first half but i really thought they would like the second half... did i miss hearing a lot of mistakes?.. even then.. it's still beethoven and the music is fabulous!!.. oh wel, maybe i misread the reaction..
anyway, tomorrow is winterformals...i'm excited ^^ i'd be even more excited if something else happened as well but i don't think it will.. i should really stop bring it up ^^;
... on an entirely random note, where's julie?.. wel, ok. silly question. i bet i can guess where she is.. but it's getting rather late...
searching for chronos @ 3:28 am
|thursday. december 2. 2004
music| mandy moore - stupid cupid
.. needed a break from working so decided to write this... did i ever say how wonderful green tea is? it's the only thing keeping me awake right now...
hm.. this week has been a pretty good week. made money in oj... and um.. hm... can't really think of anything else but it was a good week nonetheless ^_^
but tonight is decidedly going be unpleasant.. why did i waste time this afternoon reading?... people have to stop writing fun books... or at least, i need to stop getting them ^^;.. and then after orchestra i went to anna's b-day party... didn't really mean to since i have soo much crap to do but.. i went.. i really wish everyone would stop smoking.. i hate smelling smoke and smelling like smoke... living with the smokers for 3 weeks hasn't gotten me use to that, thank goodness... and the bar stank with smoke.. so of course, i had to come back and take a shower. i can't stand that... but that was another .5 hour i could have worked..
ah wel.. the lab report is done but now i still have the problem set and japanese hw and quiz to study for... eep.. why do i get the feeling i'll be up a looooot longer?
searching for chronos @ 2:59 am
|wednesday. november 24. 2004
music| beethoven - missa solemnis, sanctus
... for some reason, just felt an urge to make wallpapers out of photos i had so i made them... one princeton, and 4 other random nature ones... they're on cg images page.. why am i so random?.. anyway, sleep time!
searching for chronos @ 4:12 am
|music| beethoven - symphony no. 7, 2nd mvt
oh yeah.. almost forgot. happy thanksgiving ^^ 
.. and yes, it's very very wrong of me to take soo much enjoyment from this picture but... i can't help it ^_^... if you don't get it, look at the legs of the bird very very carefully... hee..
searching for chronos @ 2:44 am
|music| beethoven - symphony no. 7, 1st mvt
took things really easy today.. in fact, did no work at all ^^
the day started out with me waking up really really late. then it was a walmart for stuffing and, of course, i got sidetracked by michaels... then i organized a few things for friday and stef arrived with her cousins. they're really nice ^^.. oh yeah, and julie and nicole ditched me before that... hope they have fun without me.. if such a thing is possible... ^_^
then while i putzed around me room, stef finished her pillow... it's really really tall... took 3.5 bags of stuffing!! and then i got me some books, sushi, cds and dvds ^_^ spent a bit too much money on that but for the 8 new cds i have, the $40+ was well spent *^^* and now the room has a copy of shrek along with vampire hunter d:bloodlust and record of the lodoss war ova... i wonder if the roomies might wever want to see either of those? hehe. that would be fuuun... tho vhd:bloodlust is a bit on the sad side but sooo visually pretty.. lodoss is too, i guess ^^ both visually pretty and sad... but not quite. hehe
but tomorrow shall have to be slightly productive.. otherwise, i can't justify my staying here.. tho i still want to know where i would have slept if i had gone home...
searching for chronos @ 2:35 am
|tuesday. november 23. 2004
music| h.o.t. - we are the future
yaaaaaaaaaay! we made $8million+ *^_^* happy happy happy happy.. granted, our overall profit to date is still in the negatives but we're doing better!!
searching for chronos @ 7:08 pm
|music| globe - sweet heart
.. so i was just told by a professor that i need to be more brazen.. and then he followed that up with 'you're too quiet/gentle for this world'... granted i kinda figured out parts of that on my own but ... to have my thesis advisor tell me that ;_____;
searching for chronos @ 3:15 pm
|nah.. so much for my plan of not going to sleep.. i really thought i'd feel like crap after only 4 hrs of sleep but... i feel prtty good ^^ in a slightly tired sort of way...
searching for chronos @ 1:37 pm
|monday. november 22. 2004
music| globe - feel like dance
wheee. finally got back from the oj party...8.5 hours of hard core oj-ing ^^ ... all i can say is, we better do well... otw, i'm gonna get really upset. but really, we only lost the 2nd most amount of $ on the first round. yay we're not dead last... ...sigh...
anyway.. there's something i'm dying to ask my roommates about but.. none of them are awake!.. how annoying. how dare they go to sleep before 5am... ^^;
hm.. but i'm thinking no sleep for me tonight.. i mean really, julie's just waking up in 2.5 hours.. i might as well join her for breakfast ^_^... and not to mention, i'm not tired at all. hehe.. yeah i nuts...
searching for chronos @ 5:00 am
|saturday. november 20. 2004
hm.. i'm thinking i need to be more circumspect regarding things... so i shall try but i would appreciate if you comment if i fail...
but yay. stef made her pillow today ^^.. wel, not entirely. since we didn't have any stuffing left, she just has the shell but it's soo cool. it's tall, soft, purple, and fuzzy ^_^ i can't wait until wednesday when i'll go pick up more stuffing and her pillow can be finished.
oj is really starting to irritate me... somehow i get the nagging feeling that we might do better if we just chose random numbers instead of doing all the work we're doing...
searching for chronos @ 2:22 am
|friday. november 19. 2004
waaaiiii ^_^ stef made me a biiiiig pink pillow. it's sooo cool
it all happened cause she wanted to go to walmart and get $70+ worth of cookies and all things bad for you ^^ and last time i had been there, i had seen this fuzzy bright pink cloth in the fabric section that i jsut had to have .. sooooo soft... but then i had no idea what to make with it. so today i dragged stef to the fabric section with me and showed it to her and she suggested pillow! and she liked it so much that she got some in lavender ^^ so then she showed me how to make a pillow tonight *^^*.. but really, she made it and i sort of watched. hehe
the only bad part is that the fabric sheds like mad so we had a pink fur infestation! so we had a lot of fun de-pink-fur-ing ourselves with tape.. tape is fabulous for such things ^^
searching for chronos @ 2:19 am
|thursday. november 18. 2004
and yes! the new version of glass eternity is up ^^ isn't it beautiful ^^
searching for chronos @ 3:00 am
|so... version 4 of the main page is now up... the one for this one will follow soon.. probably tonight... and nicole, i do apologize for the crappy crappy color scheme of the new one.. but it can't be helped.. at least, i can't find anything better ;__;
.. and a dilemma... should i go to the make up class tonight? the only reason i found out about it is because i randomly read someone's away message.. i mean, if i hadn't gone on aim, i would never have known. no email, no mention in class... so what to do, what to do?
and yay. have 2 recommenders.. now if only cinlar would say yes ^^
searching for chronos @ 4:50 pm
|wednesday. november 17. 2004
.. why do i like this song so much.. i don't know... but it's addictive.. but really, it's such an odd song too...
as for songs that i'm currently slightly obsessed with with reason are 'tobira no mukou e' from full metal alchemist by yellow generation, and the pastoral symph by beethoven... the former i like the lyrics and the music and the latter is just cool ^^.. and why am i doing this now? i have nooo clue.. i just weird like that ^^
searching for chronos @ 2:26 am
|thinking about the future is terrifying ... why can't life just be decided for me the way i would like it to be? *that* would be nice...
but booo... lost $1billion+ on this round of oj...
searching for chronos @ 1:04 am
|tuesday. november 16. 2004
.. for now i give up.. i'll just use the ugly (but free) commenting service until i can get something together that works.. why the hell does it have to be so complicated???
searching for chronos @ 12:13 am
|music| angelic layer - yume no tamago
AWSOME!!! yeppie.com is now mine *^_^*... granted it just takes you directly to the princeton page since i'm too cheap to get a hosting service when princeton gives me such a nice one... but this means i'm set for next year!!! ^_^
*happy happy dance*
searching for chronos @ 11:56 pm
monday. november 15. 2004
.. it's getting to the 5th hour that i've been in the pc lab... while i love the large screens.. the pcs are slow and excel sucks... sort of... *sigh* and i was sooo looking forward to getting out of here sometime early.. but for the good of my group, yay pureconcentrate, and my gpa <--needs all the help it can get...nyway, i feel kinda redundant, sitting here watching julie and kevin do all the work.. but really, there's nothing i can be doing now... i wish we could divide the jobs up so it would take less time for everyone but that's not happening.. it probably wouldn't be a good idea anyway.
hmm. but today was a pretty good day. got almost 15 points back on a midterm. while that doesn't make my grade fantastic, it helps me to keep from failing... i like not failing, even if it makes brazil unhappy... ^^
it's also nice that i no longer mind going to orchestra rehearsals.. not like last concert anyway.. i like beethoven.. the others, i'm still uncertain about.. well.. i kinda don't like the trueman.. it's creepy.. not that i have anything against creepy but.. it's just a bit excessively creepy...and kiri's is ok.. maybe a bit bland? but the beethoven is nice ^_^ daisuki for that one. hehe
but seriously, one should never ever give me this much time to blog.. i'm doing this out of sheer boredom cause i'm stuck in friend but have nothing to do.. that's so sad...
searching for chronos @ 12:30 am
i feel like i'm on a sinking boat, bailing with a thimble...
searching for chronos @ 3:42 pm
friday. november 12. 2004
. drat.. so it's no date for winterformals for yeppie... sigh.. why on earth did the concert have to be on the same weekend... otherwise, his parents wouldn't be here and then he could go with me... but anyway, at least it looks like he would have said yes otherwise ^^ that makes me happy..
on a positive note, i will get to eat dinner at winterformals. soo glad charter added a 6pm dinner slot. yay!
.. but what the heck am i doing, i need to wake up waaaaay early tomorrow... playing chauffeur to julie and stef at 7:15... then it'll be a post office run, some quality time at barnes and nobles, and then, best of all, brunch! hehe.. yeah. bed time!
searching for chronos @ 12:31 am
tuesday. november 9. 2004
pretty good day today. spent most of it playing catch up on the stuff that should have been done ages ago... then the rest of it was spent on preping for the midterm tomorrow... i think i'm ready..?
but it was a good night ^_^ got im-ed and that made me happy. recently it's been me who start the ims so i was starting to feel like a pest but no more of that now ^^
nyway, time to get some sleep ^^
searching for chronos @ 2:49 am
sunday. november 7. 2004
music| fukuyama masaharu - koibito
this weekend was the weekend of wasted time.. much time was spent on friday and saturday on the oj stuff and not much was accomplished.. then i spent a little too much time helping someone out but... while i regret the time spent on the oj, i curiously don't mind the other time wasted... but now i'm soooo screwed for tomorrow... but i can't get started on the stupid thesis report.. argh... it also doesn't help that i watched garden state twice this weekend... i should have spent the time on this but.. oh wel, it was worth it ^_^... not that the movie was that good... wel, i mean it had it's moments and so the 2nd time wasn't all that bad (i really like the knight part ^_^ that's just fun) but normally i wouldn't have seen it again.. especially not the next day.. but oh wel ^^;
now if only i could get this thing written.. but noooo.. i just can't write report-type papers.. it would be fine if i could write it in this manner, complete stream-of-thought.. but somehow i can't see cinlar being happy with that... but it would be funny to see his reaction ^^;
searching for chronos @ 12:14 am
friday. november 5. 2004
today was possibly one of the most painful days.. but not the most... kornhauser final project day takes *that* title.. but almost 10 hours spent on oj and not much progress... i'm really tempted to have our group liquidate the business and just say we'll invest the proceeds into something else... is that allowed?.. sigh.. and we meet again tomorrow...
but anyway, i saw garden state tonight. twas a fun movie... maybe i'll see it again tomorrow? ^^.. tho i really shouldn't and work on the thesis... this week is just going to be a pain... thesis, oj, and interview mon, 435 midterm wed, oj again thurs, and 411 *takehome* midterm after that.. what's up with that? the prof should not make us take home the midterm and work on it at home to show that we learned the stupid material just cause he made the midterm too hard and no one did well... jerk *shaking fist* ...
searching for chronos @ 1:21 am
thursday. november 4. 2004
music| banya - black cat
i've decided work is bad for one's mental health and the university should do something about it.. i mean, it's really not right that these professors are permitted to give us mental anguish everyday ^_^
but i've definitely flopped a midterm, have no clue about the rest of my life but i'm rather cheerful because i have no work... and i did spend some time going through pictures from this year... there are some really good ones. i just need to get motivated and put them up ^^;
.. oh and i got a new book too *^^*
searching for chronos @ 10:20 pm
tuesday. november 2. 2004
...bah...
searching for chronos @ 1:34 am
monday. october 25. 2004
yay. watching the daily show ^^ i do like jon stewert. what a fun man ^^ and what a fun show... but really, commercials suck.. as do a lot of the new shows that are being made..
i can't quite decide if i enjoy coming home or if it's a pain... mom and sunny argue.. mom nags.. i get mad at her.. and i end up getting stressed about me, sunny, her, life in general... and then she asks me to do all these random things. as if i didn't have enough to do on my own... granted, i didn't expect to get a great deal done at home but it's almost impossible... and i'm soo frustrated with my brother.. he's like a big lump most of the time... and how can he be getting a c in french? this is high school.. none of the classes are that hard!!.. but the most irritating thing is he doesn't seem like he gives a damn about it all.. argh.. if i thought smacking him would help, i would so it but that won't... no wonder mom is having a fit... i'm as relaxed as jell-o compared to her on this thing.. she's soo the typical asian mom.. it's rather scary. but i can understand it.. sort of.. slightly..
but you know.. i really wish i had a bed and a room at home..
searching for chronos @ 12:01 am
wednesday. october 20. 2004
music| .hack//sign - the world
sad... my jacket design didn't make it... and not only that, all the ones that did make it are soooooo boring...
.. the day was also sad in that i don't i did too well on ele201 and then didn't make nomura... although, that really irritates me more than makes me sad cause i don't really want to work in finance... one of the interviewers was definitely giving me hints that i wasn't really going to be chosen.. saying we're looking for aggressive.. repeating the stupid word 3-4 times... i just wanted to yell at him and ask if i was being agressive enough then.. can i help it if i'm of a gentle disposition.. wel.. yeah, i could, if i cared a lot more about getting the stupid job
searching for chronos @ 10:28 pm
tuesday. october 19. 2004
oh dear.. the internet is such a time-sucker... i planned to start studying an hour ago and ended up reading about the sinclair media company nonsense...
searching for chronos @ 5:15 pm
monday. october 18. 2004
exciting week, this week. interview tomorrow, midterm wednesday, problem set thursday, midterm friday... oh boy. can't wait ^^;.. but i really shouldn't complain... everyone else is just as busy.. if not more so. i guess i'm just a bit worried about tomorrow.. while i don't really want to be in finance, i understand fixed income and this company might get me chance to work in japan! so i would like to get an offer from them.. oh wel, what happens will happen
now to look over a bit of japanese and i think it's off to sleep... unless i get distracted again ^_^
oh.. i wonder what happened with the senior jacket contest? i hope mine is one of the two ^^ that would be exciting
searching for chronos @ 1:41 am
saturday. october 16. 2004
music| madonna - die another day
wanted to get two designs for senior jackets done but i need sleep, so i'll just have to be content with the one i have... i'm not sure how cool it is tho.. *shrug* oh wel.. sleep is more important
but.. today's been an odd sort of day.. don't know whether i should be happy or upset... the day started out blah with an early morning rehearsal... i'm so out of it in the morning, my coordination is nonexistant... it's hard enough sitting in class before 11am but trying to play the viola?!.. how awful ^^; hee
then it was work and then nap time followed by a lovely italian dinner made by damara and mary (mary mostly i guess). soo good and soo much food... we had more than half left when we were all done ^^; mary made a bit too much... then it was off to the concert, which was surprisingly pretty good tho i made some bad mistakes in the beginning.. oh wel, c'est la vie and all ^_^.. wel, it's really a lack of practice that makes that happen but.. we'll just ignore that...
then it was the orchestra party.. at which i didn't stay long, as always... too much like the street.. if i wanted that, i could have gone there instead.. i miss the type of parties we had earlier.. like during my freshman years. they were nice and not too noisy with no non-orchestra people at it. much more condusive to getting to know people.
the day wouldn't have been quite so upsetting if i hadn't received a call from home.. anytime i get a call from home after 11pm is bad news.. and this time was no exception at all. i really wish mom and sunny would learn to cope with each other.. but mostly, i wish mom would stop doing stupid things that will guarentee a fight with sunny... how anyone could be soo irrational about things, i don't understand... how she thought that trashing his entire collection of magic cards would make him want to study better is completely incomprehensible...
but i've more or less determined that the two of them are together again... i feel like i should be more upset but the signs have been pointing that way for the last week or so.. so it's more or less what i've been expecting... that doesn't make me feel any better but at least i wasn't hoping for it anymore.. hope is the cruelest emotion..
nyway...so nicole thinks i have an admirer.. i wonder if it's true...? i thought he was still dating someone but i haven't really seen them together lately and goodness knows i'm out of the loop when it comes to things like that... i've never considered him before since i thought he was taken.. hmm.. i suppose i should think about.. or maybe not, i don't know for sure so it could all be false.. i wish i weren't so clueless on things like this... ;___; ... i guess i'll just see what happens...
searching for chronos @ 5:16 am
monday. october 11. 2004
oh yeah.. forgot someone actually look at this... thanks ^^ it was good to talk about it. and the advice was helpful ^_^ *big hug*
now for my problem set...
searching for chronos @ 2:51 am
saturday. october 9. 2004
music| linkin park - somewhere i belong
sigh.. why do i get the feeling i won't be seeing someone around anymore... probably cause it happened last year when .. it's bad enough that i can't have what i'd like but then i also have to see the reason why i can't, all the time.. it's rather depressing... now i know how julie felt...
searching for chronos @ 8:00 pm
went to the animal shelter today. a really depressing place (the neighborhood and the building) but the animals seemed well cared for... the poor kitties tho. they're so thin and terrified ;___;.. i wonder if the place has enough funding... i hope it does..
searching for chronos @ 4:20 pm
monday. october 4. 2004
music| fukuyama masaharu - squall
i didn't think i'd be up this long.. and i can't even blame it on a problem set cause i finished that earlier than i thought i would.. i should really not putz around so much. i bet i could get hours more sleep in a week if i just stopped that ^^; but isn't that the case with everyone....
but one of the coolest and most useful sites online is JEDI. it's a japanese dictionary where you can search by kanji, the kanas, english, and romanji.. soo useful and fun to find random words ^^
tomorrow night is the vp debate... edwards vs. cheney... oh boy, this i gotta see.. at least, i'll try ^^; we'll see if i remember...
searching for chronos @ 2:47 am
saturday. october 2. 2004
music| boa - painful sarang
bah... would it be wrong to wish something not good as long as i didn't actually try to do it? i hope not... cause i'm doing an awful lot of that lately... and a lot of asking dousurebaii or doshite.. i don't know which would be better to know... preferably both but maybe that's asking too much...
searching for chronos @ 3:29 am
music| full metal alchemist - unrest
what a good day ^^ one less standardized test in my life and then i read this letter
yay
searching for chronos @ 5:37 pm
friday. october 1. 2004
music| full metal alchemist - unrest
doshite.. doshite... sigh.. i wish i knew. i hate nothing quite so much as uncertainty and the not knowing is driving me nuts...burekkuuppu shitara dooshite.. eh...
but yay. i get to eat with otousan and wu-san today ^^..
searching for chronos @ 5:30 pm
tuesday. september 28. 2004
conversation with mom always end with me depressed... i wish she'd stop pushing me to grad school... i really don't know if grad school *is* what i want to do.... i really need to figure everything out on my own... and she's not helping at all...
searching for chronos @ 11:22 pm
music| koizumi kouhei - secret sorrow
ack.. i'm such a bad engineer.... i take a practice gre and my verbal score is higher than my quantatative score... i even got fewer wrong T___T ... not that my verbal score is all that high.. but that just makes it that much more unacceptable... argh..
maybe if i spend more time on it, i'll be able to do better. i had about 10 mins left at the end of the quantitative section... but i just can't get the hand of not being able to go back to questions... i get all messed up in the timing.. sigh
but other than that, i've just had one too many chocolate covered hazelnuts.. i'm soo on a sugar high ^^; but i also can't stop eating them either cause they're so good... what to do, what to do... it was a mistake to ask stef to bring me some from charter... should have not done that... but i'm almost out so that's good right?
hm.. maybe i should go back to doing some gre stuff...
searching for chronos @ 9:30 pm
saturday. september 26. 2004
music| zetsuai - dousurebaii
haven't written in sooo long... sigh. it's cause of school.. darn classes...
nyway, the weekend has been fun. ddr-ing. asian grocery store. viola get together. all good stuff ^^
venting was also good... nice to get things out in the open i guess. now it's all just the waiting...
but stupid charter and the fun fund...
searching for chronos @ 2:17 am
sunday. september 12. 2004
went to a renaissance fair today. it was a lot of fun ^^ too bad people couldn't go. highlight was getting two more hairsticks and de-legging a turkey/emu...
ny yesterday was a lot of fun too but 'the frogs' was a rather odd show... but i was happy i got to eat some takoyaki and okonomiyaki. i miss japanese food...
searching for chronos @ 11:18 pm
friday. september 10. 2004
music| shrek - it is you
first two days of classes has passed... rather boring but what else can be expected?
going into ny tomorrow. it'll be lots of fun ^^
searching for chronos @ 3:48 am